Well

My life this week looks like the script to a soap opera

My grandma died. Right in front of me. She was breathing fast and unsteady. She looked like she was in so much pain for a few weeks. Constantly in pain.  The other day a nurse came by and told us to read this book.  It was called the mystery of death. Inside contained signs of death and what to do and not to do. One was don't force her to eat it won't help she doesn't want it. She is going to die it is enevitable. Another was once her hands turn blue she is about to die. IT was true. She died the day her hands turned blue.

I saw her in the morning before work. I went to work and a couple of hours later, my mom called me. I told her i was comming. When I got there i was in tears. I never got to see her because the burning crew had just left with her body. IDk what they are called, so I call them the burning crew.

SO today Bobby tells me that he just wants to be friends. I am pissed and I say no. All or nothing. It turns out he likes one of my best friends. GRETEL PLACER. I should have saw it comming. I didn't because I trust her. She goes and cries about val stealing that guy she liked and then she goes and does it to me. What kind of friend is that? WHo does some shit like that? I would never in a million years consider that shit. I saw it comming, but I didn't think it was her becuase I didn't notice it because I trust her. I told her no too. ME or HIM. so heres the throwdown. We will see how much we can trust gretel now. Jesus of all ppl too.

MY life was going amazing until monday rolled around.

now it sucks ass

Laura is comming down tomorrow. She is prolly going to stay a while. We are going to dread our hair. I have nobody to impress now. so why not? I have ALWAYS wanted to anyways.

I am so glad that I am graduating tomorrow. I dont have to deal with these fuck heads any more. FUCK all of them.

THey say crying is good for you. It releases toxins. So i must be HEALTHY as shit now.

ALthough i feel like shit. Boys are only there to break your heart.

I can't belive I was going to fuck him this weekend. Good thing I didn't tell him and then pull this shit afterwards.

MAYBE my softball game will keep my mind of my sorry excuse for a life

prom was the best high school dance i have ever been to in my life.  Bobby was perfect. Everything between us went well.  He is amazing.  I love when he does favors with out asking. I am always thinking it, but i would never ask in fear of ruining the mood.  Then once he does it he says tell me you love me. so I do and he always says I know you do. I always laugh. All he cares about is making it a fun time for us. He doesn't give a fuck about anyone else and doesn't care what anyone thinks. MY BOYFRIEND IS AhhhhhhMAZING!!  

I love when he calls me baby and when he kisses me goodbye

ohh

friday masquerade+bobby=yay then one handle at tamera's later= sexcellient time

we spent the tight at Tams and I had to go to work @ the crack of ass dawn not really but it seemed like that cuz i got 3 hours of sleep

then i was supposed to hang out with rachel saturday night and then she wanted to go to battle of the bands, so i went to kroger to get sushi and try to figure out what i was doing when i met up with hannah and alli. they were making smoothies, so we went to hannahs house and made mixers and then well you know what they do outside. when her parents came home we went to her room to "hide", but our eyes were fucked up so she knew and was pissed. So we went and got eye drops and i am tired of telling this story cuz i have add